I am so uncomfortable.

It is that time of the month again so I am bloated as hell and have a headache. It swells all my muscles on top of exercise so I didn’t do too much at the gym session this week. I also have my injured finger so today has literally been a leg exercise session only. Then the annoying thing about it is that my hand still comes up and I am trying to use my other hand to do stuff (hard when it is my dominant hand). I should have called the GP this morning but having trouble sleeping means I can never meet the 8am deadline to try to get an on the day appointment. We still only get given a phone appointment at our surgery so it is kind of useless if you’ve got a swollen hand. I am really tired. The malfunctioning hard springy mattress is making it harder to sleep. That maybe why I wake up aching a lot. I haven’t got that kind of money to spend all in one go and now I am paying off my mobile phone over 12 months so unless I get a good deal (and I mean decent quality for 400 to 500 quid which I can pay off in stages) I can’t fix the issue. I am going to try to get something to strap my hand up so that I can use it. I left my flat in a state because I just can’t use my hand properly when it comes to vacuuming up etc. Cat hairs are building and that is kicking off my allergies so it’s a horrible environment to live in while I can’t physically keep on top of it. I can barely move anyway just before my monthly starts due to swelling up. I think it may come on slightly early as it was spotting earlier… so if that can just get it over with I will be a lot more comfortable. I really stepped up my home exercises this week (only normally walk) and I feel it so much that I had to take the weight levels down which I normally lift due to my muscles already being fatigued. It works though. I got my base weight to 78.8kg when I got up today which was unexpected after falling off the calorie consumption ladder earlier on in the week. I did 600 reps of leg exercises (3 different ways 100 each) in bed the first night and 100 on each leg the night after (200 in total). Yesterday I went for a walk too. I needed to push my body into fat burning mode due to the fact that it was messing around not getting very far on the weight loss scale. It sounds a lot but doesn’t feel it if you do it in sets of 20. This is probably the worse time of the month to do it but as I am in pain anyway it will just blend in and probably help push nature along in the hormone department. I was getting rather lazy. I wasn’t trying hard enough and then bitching about gaining weight… I have bloat today but that is just temporary for probably the next week. I am totally prepared to feel battered for the next week if in the long run my weight finally drops. I can still lift some weights on my arms because I have a wrap around weight that will avoid having to put pressure on my swollen hand (it sticks around the wrist) … it isn’t so heavy but I can keep up progress while injured.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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