I’m not answering things at the moment.

I am sorry but I am not replying to anything at the moment. I can’t be out there at the moment. I literally have gained all the weight back in a week due to stuffing myself. I now have a morning base weight of 79.8 kg and I need to deal with that before I reply to anything. I undid everything. I can barely eat the next few days to bring it back down. I won’t starve if I take the multivitamins with what I ado eat. I have no interest in being social that isn’t productive.
I woke up with my finger actually stiff this morning. It is still really swollen and now it’s stiff it hurts to bend. I am too large to exist. I now need to eat one meal a day and breakfast every second day for a week to make my body go down. I am hungry but I will be because I was constantly topping up calories. I went for a walk yesterday but it got cut short due to headphones dying. I have left them on charge so they have no excuse to let me down again. I don’t barely want to drink because that is excess scale weight straight away. I have been going the gym and trying to lose weight for nearly a year now. I shouldn’t be still stuck after losing the first stone. I should have barely any body fat by now. I don’t go as much as I should due to injury but I walk enough. I used to be 9 and a half stone walking most days. I don’t want this body it sucks.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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