There’s the logical attitude that if someone loses a child to adoption then it’s simple… all they have to do is try again. That may seem simple when it comes to being a non-disabled person but involves much more challenges / issues. I am also not the same person after all the trauma of my son’s adoption. I merely just exist now. Sometimes I don’t even want to get out of bed. I don’t make plans because I see no future for myself. I don’t think it is safe for me to go out into society much as someone who is classed as a vulnerable adult. The accusations that can be thrown at us just for trying to function as ourselves. I won’t get the chance again because the outside world isn’t designed to accommodate for adults with disabilities such as autism and mental health issues. The understanding isn’t there. It seems to be worse now then when I had my son a decade ago. Since then, the laws being passed in the United Kingdom are making it more unsafe for people with conditions like myself. I simply don’t feel safe to trust others enough to have any kind of life.