Month: July 2022

  • I am struggling to function at the moment.

    I fell asleep for a few hours earlier. I then woke up and now sleep isn’t happening again. I have a headache which I managed to get rid of a bit by taking pain relief. The mattress on my bed gets hard after a few hours due to the springs coming through and the fabric…

  • I somehow made it through the day despite lack of sleep.

    I seriously didn’t even want to get up today. I even made myself go to the gym due to having to get a few bits from the supermarket next door. I couldn’t sleep for most of the night. I got those brain zaps withdrawal effects again. I hate them so much. Luckily, I don’t have…

  • I don’t know how I stayed awake today.

    I felt like falling asleep earlier today not long after waking up. I made myself get up off the sofa after eating my lunch. I got housework done, washed my hair and went for a walk to wake up properly. I was so close to getting dressed for bed and going for a nap at…

  • I need to find out something.

    I have always had a suspicion that I may have been an evil soul rather than mentally ill etc. I just need to find out for sure. There has to be a valid test to find out. I have a theory that I was not one of those rainbow babies that incarnated after a few…

  • Dead inside.

    I may be physically alive, but I have felt dead inside for many years. I sometimes don’t even feel present. I really need sleep but that isn’t happening yet. I have been dead inside since my son’s adoption. I am always elsewhere in my head. I forget chunks of things that happen. I have since…