I can’t sleep being plagued by utter frustration.

I am glad that youngsters who are growing up autistic have more opportunities in life but I feel like I missed out. I see all these youngsters and some my age or older who had the support growing up succeeding in life. Then I look at myself and I can’t get there. I tried to get places when I was younger but it never worked. Meanwhile there are autistic individuals in many roles that I could never get into. Some of them have several roles at one time. Meanwhile I am just an unemployed blogger who is forced to live a lonely life after my son was snatched for adoption. It isn’t fair how some of us are left to struggle and punished for our autism. There is a woman who has bpd studying neuroscience at leicester university that is also getting married. I tried university but my brain won’t do it. Everyone I have ever formed any sort of relationship with has turned out to either be a user or an absolute tosser. Why am I left behind? I may be burnt out but that doesn’t stop the frustration keeping me awake at night.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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