I need to stop drinking alcohol.

I have increased the amount I drank of alcohol recently. It crept up again along with the scale numbers. I don’t enjoy alcohol any more. I just end up really anxious and unable to sleep. I now need to push the scale back down and never actually make any progress. I hate myself for deciding to even start drinking again. I have neglected my surroundings so now it smells in here. I feel sick, bloated and fat. I just can’t completely ditch the stuff and that is really stressful. I didn’t even drink alcohol for a period of time. I didn’t even miss it but now I keep going back to it after chilling with a few packs during lockdown. I even despise it as I am drinking it. I need to not buy another pack because I am screaming at myself no.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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