Trying to keep a lid on it but some people infuriate me.

Those of you that know me will be aware of something which happened between me and a lecturer. I finally got over it but still see her as an awful person. I may have been a pain in the ass at that time but certainly didn’t do half the things she accused me of. I went through hell due to what happened, and I simply cannot forgive her for that. I feel hatred deeply due to my bpd side. As far as I am concerned, she deserves to starve. I have no sympathy. I have no solidarity in regard to both of us having a form of disability. I have to refrain from telling her she deserves all the crap as it is karma for what she put me through due to the order I have put on me for life due to things relating to my disability. There are some people who deserve to be disabled and I don’t say things like that lightly. She strolls around trying to make out that she is a good decent person. That is a complete facade, she is basically a lie. I cannot hold my tongue any longer. She is a lefty troublemaker who enjoys complaining. Horrendous personality and had a weird vibe about her. I wish that others could see that when she pretends to be nice and vulnerable. She is merely a fraud.