BPD logic…

I was sure that I did like someone and genuinely care. I kind of did but I tried to rush things for my own reasons. I needed to get a way to finally move away. I knew that both of us having BPD would be difficult but if I prepared for it I could live with it. I hate being in relationships because I feel the extension of me. If anyone is my favourite person I literally have a crap day when they do. I worry about that person constantly and I am always checking up on them. That tortures me. I try to take over their life and fix all the stuff which is wrecked in their life. I have to be in some form of relationship to do certain goals in life. One of those things was to move away. I found someone I saw as useful so I went for it. Anyway, now it is over and they’ll never know that I had a selfish agenda because they won’t talk to me after trying to fix their life.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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