I want to pop myself! Uncomfortable and can’t sleep.

I feel so bloated I want to pop myself. I am due on my monthly tomorrow. On the plus side I found my ultrasound letter and discovered that my ultrasound appointment is actually on the 19th rather than 15th (don’t know why I thought it was on that date) so definitely will be done with monthly by then. I feel sick, the scales are just insulting me every time I get on them (cut daily calorie consumption two days ago by 400 to 300 deficit a day depending what I eat so hopefully that shows on the scales after a few weeks) and my allergies have kicked off after being ok most of the day. I keep getting frustrated and the brain zaps are now on and off. I want to sleep but I can’t. I managed to catch up with some sleep yesterday for most of the day so at least I got some. Even when I do sleep I keep waking up every few hours. It is really annoying. I don’t know if it is insomnia, antidepressant withdrawals or the mattress being uncomfortable. I don’t know where to put myself. I need to be up tomorrow to get parcel back and my nails need doing because they are growing out. I caught one on something today and it really hurt. I am having them taken off for a while. I have my own nail growth underneath which are a decent length if I can prevent them from breaking. I hate the feel of having them taken off but these sets start getting uncomfortable after a few months of nails growing underneath. I had them on since March so nearly six months.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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