I somehow made it through the day despite lack of sleep.

I seriously didn’t even want to get up today. I even made myself go to the gym due to having to get a few bits from the supermarket next door. I couldn’t sleep for most of the night. I got those brain zaps withdrawal effects again. I hate them so much. Luckily I don’t have to go over to mums now. I am bloated and moody. I will be alright in a few days when monthly makes an appearance. The fact that I feel like I am bursting from the inside is worrying because it might come on extremely badly. It shouldn’t do due to no longer being on iron tablets but I don’t trust it. I hope that it is about done by the time my ultrasound is booked. That is 2 weeks. If it comes on 9th (like last month when it was slightly early) then by 15th it should be done. I just hope that they find something soon. It is getting more uncomfortable. If it is endometriosis it will only get worse as time goes on. I am getting more bloated than I used to be. I have felt things around where my ovaries probably are which feels like a stitch inside me every month. It isn’t often but it is new. I was feeling it on one side but last month it was both and monthly came on with vengeance a week early. It turned out convenient as far as dates as I was due to start on 14th. The date of ultrasound this month. I am just fed up with it. I just want it sorted. I can tell by the bloat and heaviness how bad this month is going to be. Judging by what I feel like now I won’t be leaving at the house much. I really am not looking forward to those few days.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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