I somehow made it through the day despite lack of sleep.

I seriously didn’t even want to get up today. I even made myself go to the gym due to having to get a few bits from the supermarket next door. I couldn’t sleep for most of the night. I got those brain zaps withdrawal effects again. I hate them so much. Luckily I don’t have to go over to mums now. I am bloated and moody. I will be alright in a few days when monthly makes an appearance. The fact that I feel like I am bursting from the inside is worrying because it might come on extremely badly. It shouldn’t do due to no longer being on iron tablets but I don’t trust it. I hope that it is about done by the time my ultrasound is booked. That is 2 weeks. If it comes on 9th (like last month when it was slightly early) then by 15th it should be done. I just hope that they find something soon. It is getting more uncomfortable. If it is endometriosis it will only get worse as time goes on. I am getting more bloated than I used to be. I have felt things around where my ovaries probably are which feels like a stitch inside me every month. It isn’t often but it is new. I was feeling it on one side but last month it was both and monthly came on with vengeance a week early. It turned out convenient as far as dates as I was due to start on 14th. The date of ultrasound this month. I am just fed up with it. I just want it sorted. I can tell by the bloat and heaviness how bad this month is going to be. Judging by what I feel like now I won’t be leaving at the house much. I really am not looking forward to those few days.