I still am hurt at how people treat me of have treated me. That is how I feel under the new take no shit kind of persona. I wish things were different in many ideal worlds within all kinds of situations which have happened in my life. I never get to change anything which really bugs me in some cases. I wish that many people in my past would come around to talk to me but the likelihood of that is less than slim. I don’t have hope in certain connections all based on how they were in my past. That doesn’t mean that all the rejection from those situations doesn’t continue to affect me. I just don’t show it.