Changes I need to make…

I missed my antidepressant medication for two days due to circumstances. I started to feel like myself again. I can hear the smallest of sounds and am able to concentrate better. I am planning to take myself off of them slowly so that I don’t get the withdrawal symptoms such a brain zapping (that is the only way to describe the sensation which flits through my brain when withdrawing). I feel that it is the right time of my life to make this decision. I may have tried to come off of them a few times but I wasn’t ready then. I am a completely different person now that I am approaching my mid 30s. I wasn’t different enough last time I tried to go off antidepressants. Autism or BPD cannot be ’cured’ by any type of medication anyway. I lack confidence which you also cannot obtain from medication. I have felt more confident the last two days I missed them. I may have needed them at one point after going through traumatic things but mentally I am stronger now. I had a dip but suddenly felt mentally stronger than I have done in my entire life. I no longer feel like the same person even.