Month: May 2022

  • I don’t like the feelings (or lack of) on my antidepressants.

    I took my new dosage of antidepressants today. I was hoping that my lack of motivation and my inability to do tasks would go away but it hasn’t. It is so annoying. I know that I am not a lazy person but that is how it makes me feel. I don’t know why I am…

  • I am simply not brave enough because degree modules gave me knowledge that put me in that position.

    I may seem brave enough to take the mental health system on but now I am aware of the potential long term consequences if I legally launch a case against them. That isn’t counting how much of my past will be slung at me by the local authority etc when it comes to evidence. Some…

  • I had an early night.

    I was totally wiped out from being awake the night before. I had backache and neck ache from clearing up the mess in my flat most of the day. I took a painkiller for the neck and back pain. I had filled up with water which wasn’t helping. I feel better for the sleep but…

  • I feel like I am living a lie. It is so hard not to be honest.

    I had the phone call with the GP. I got my antidepressants put up, informed that the referrals for tests were about a 4 month wait. It was a male doctor so the period conversation was quite embarrassing in itself. A referral to a gynaecologist could also be a long wait. I was offered contraception…

  • Okay, messed up my pattern again.

    I think that I have reached my required sleep level because after sleeping that many hours yesterday I couldn’t sleep the entire night. It sucks … not even tired. I just had breakfast and medication. The cats had their breakfast so both of them are chilling out. Mimi is sat on the bed next to…