I want another chance. Please may I have one?

I really want another chance because I still need them. This has nothing to do with the BPD favourite person thing. I am over that part of the attraction. That only happens at the beginning of knowing someone. Then it fizzles out. I need that friendship though. I was doing much better after meeting them on here (well tiktok). There is no codependence but I was building back up after all that happened to me. I wouldn’t have done what I did if the friendship hadn’t been important to me. I don’t get involved for others often. I wanted to try to sort things so that they could be happy again. I cut down on alcohol. I can manage on my own but it would help me a lot if we could be friends again.