I feel like I am living a lie. It is so hard not to be honest.

I had the phone call with the GP. I got my antidepressants put up, informed that the referrals for tests were about a 4 month wait. It was a male doctor so the period conversation was quite embarrassing in itself. A referral to a gynaecologist could also be a long wait. I was offered contraception in the form of the pill or coil. I don’t want it. I want another baby asap and my time is running out for that. They shove the coil up there for at least 5 years. That will be the end of my child bearing years. I can’t be honest with the GP as they are part of the system. I don’t know when I am going to make it happen but that will prevent me doing it.