I messed up again.

I finally fell asleep this morning. I completely forgot to take medication. I just woken up about half 6 in the evening. I can’t live like this any longer. I have completely confused my body in regard to whether it is day or night. I look and feel a complete mess. Half of me doesn’t want to get up but the other thinks I should go to the gym. Then the rest of me hates facing the mess, dust and everything around me in my flat. I feel like I am wasting my days and it is becoming stressful.