Show me the apologies which I deserve.

I still haven’t slept because my IBS decided to kick off. I am trying not to move at the minute because one of my cats have fallen asleep with their paw on my shoulder. I am owed an apology from many people. I am probably never going to get those apologies though. I was young and have dealt with the consequences of being naive and stupid. I made no mistakes in malice. I was just dumb and not street wise (autism means that I probably always will be a bit). I want to move on from all that crap and start afresh. I was never a bad person and stupid isn’t a crime. I never knew that I may have BPD then and certain aspects of that condition is very hard to live with even now. If people are sorry for how things turned out then show me. I still suffer from the after effects of things which happened. I paid my dues and lived the karma.

Drunken honesty time.

I am quite frankly fed up of the way others are being keeping me awake. I am the best they’re ever going to meet. The only one thar is loyal and understanding enough to put up with all the baggage that they come with. I am one of a kind. I just don’t give a f. They will never find anyone quite like me to replace me. Real people are hard to find nowadays and it is absolutely ridiculous to let one go due to a socially naïve decision on their part. This is my advert as a person. I hope that they decide to give me a second chance to not mess up.