I can’t just not feel stuff on demand.

I am aware that I shouldn’t let someone else’s actions keep me up at night but it isn’t easy. It is part of my condition. Autism and BPD cause this and it can go on for many years. I have a stress migraine from it. I don’t even know if stress caused the inflammation in my toe and leg. That is how it could affect me. I don’t want to be affected but my disability issues could cause those issues. I haven’t managed to get my toe to not be swollen since the other day. I am going to start strapping it again so it doesn’t rub while I have shoes on. The running my foot under the cold tap has worked well as it has left my ankle not swollen at all after a year of injury related healing swelling.