I normally do put happy birthday to my son every year on here. Only, now that he is getting old enough to understand, I think that I should publish how I feel about the way in which his birth parents took him away from me. They wanted a child. In doing so they took my life away. I have been just existing ever since he was given to them. There was plenty of unwanted babies out there that they could have had but mine was the one that they chose. I never settled since that day a decade ago. When a woman gets her baby removed against their wishes then they are never the same again. They can never be truly happy or trust enough to be in any kind of relationships. They have given me a life sentence of that existence because of their selfish desire to have a child. Meanwhile, over the years, I was abandoned and kicked out of everywhere I valued because of how the trauma affected me. That is the reality of the decision that they made.