This migraine has either been brought on by stress or allergies (supposed to be really bad for hay fever sufferers this weekend). Either way, I feel and look awful. I can’t believe how much I have aged all of a sudden. Ok, the lack of ability to sleep consistently probably is catching up with me. I haven’t slept much since my friend fell out with me. I just don’t sleep well when people treat me that way. It unsettles me… that can last for months, sometimes years. I pretend I don’t care and carry on with life but really I do want to be friends again. I only did what I did because of my own life experiences. Imagine what I am feeling like today. I never got a chance with my own son. He is 10 today and won’t even remember me. I tried to repair my friends connection with her son because I know how much it hurts. I think very literal due to being autistic, I saw the solution as simple when to others it isn’t. I cope without support services so my autism gets to freestyle into unwise decisions. I don’t deserve to be fallen out with for good. If I hadn’t lost my own son to adoption then I wouldn’t have made the decision which got me ditched.