I couldn’t sleep last night again which hasn’t helped. I was asleep most of the day because I was exhausted. Depression literally feels like it is pulling me down so that getting out of bed and staying up is hard. I see that my ex friend never meant that they would stick around to be there for me like I was for them. I am depressed on top of already being depressed because my flat is grubby. I may not even get dressed today. I can just bath and change pjs.