It is going to be a long day…

I woke up feeling like crap. I am still not properly better. That is going to take a while. I am losing eyelashes again on one side mostly. I have allergies which makes my eyes run and itch. I think that I also have a cold too. I still feel run down. I have had a migraine for about a week on and off. The cat started the day being an absolute pain today. He is vocal at the moment and starts strolling around being noisy. I am having mind blanks today… I literally forgot some of the passcode to my phone. Luckily it has face recognition but sometimes the phone demands the code to activate that. I don’t know why my mind keeps forgetting things. I used to have the best memory. I never even had to write things down because my long term memory was like a photograph. I am just tired a lot, maybe holding information in your head requires energy I no longer seem to have nowadays. I really am not in the mood for messing around when it comes to friendships etc. I am not up for games. I am able to pick up certain things because that part of me still works. Cut out the bullshit, if you want to talk to me again… do it. If you keep thinking about the right way to approach me then you’ll never do it… Sam. You know that you were wrong to treat me the way that you did. I was the only one to truly care. I accepted you for you and I was just trying to help in a misguided way. I have pure intentions and that is rare when it comes to people. As you said yourself, I was literally the only one who checked up on you and made sure you were ok. So maybe I am not someone you should let go of or push away so easily.