14 days, 2 weeks… it was so hard!

I finally managed to quit drinking alcohol completely. I have only managed a week each time before since the beginning of the year. It was so hard to get passed the first week but now I don’t even crave alcohol now even when I am near the alcohol aisle in the supermarket. I can’t believe 14 days has gone so quickly. I never thought that I could get out of that destructive routine. I don’t think that I have lost weight but I can’t tell at the moment due to monthly bloat. I will be able to see if that is happening in a few days.

Today has been a challenge.

I had a good sleep before today started so I’m not grumpy but catching up on things I haven’t done due to being too tired is a mental battle. I had to go back home half way through my walk to put my stuff I bought from the shop in the fridge etc. It is getting a bit warm to carry milk etc on a long walk. I still forgot butter (the main thing I went out for in the first place). Oh and my headphones are breaking but new ones aren’t here yet.

It is ’that’ season for cats and mister won’t leave mimi alone. They are both fixed so they can’t cause any damage but they still get those instincts. Mimi has been up on the top of wardrobe the last week a lot so that mister leaves her alone, today he decided to go up there after her. I just told him off before I came back out.

I keep struggling … when it seems I am ok, bam it changes.

I feel like I am doing ok but then I start feeling crap again. I keep getting migraines. I ache all over tonight. I have taken a painkiller but it isn’t really touching the aches. I can still feel migraine. I fell asleep briefly but woke up again. I am tired but the aches are a sensory nightmare to my autistic side. The migraine got on my nerves so much earlier that I was messing with my hair and probably have damaged it. I rubbed the areas where there was pain to try to get rid of it. It left my hair matted and looking damaged, so many strands were coming out. I put oil on it to help it be less matted and dry. I will probably have to wash it soon to get it not messy.