I went to the gym tonight. I won’t sit in and feel sorry for myself. I don’t feel too well but I lifted some weights which weren’t so heavy. I pushed myself to my limits which I could reach today. I don’t have my strength back yet. I still need to push myself as far… Read More I didn’t sit in this evening feeling sorry for myself.

I have tried to not be affected but I can’t hide it. This is subconsciously destroying me in the background in between life stuff. I am deeply cut up by what happened with my friend at Christmas and the fact they they now won’t speak to me since then. I don’t want to give them… Read More I can’t pretend anymore.

I fell asleep quite quickly but woke up at a stupid hour. 3 am! I decided to have breakfast at 4 am because I was hungry. I regret that now due to feeling bloated and uncomfortable. I had the most random dream before I woke up. I was working at computers for a Chinese woman… Read More Woke up feeling sad at 3 am.

I had a drink last night when I got home. Then I couldn’t sleep, so tonight I haven’t had alcohol. I feel less wired and more relaxed so should sleep soon. I feel self conscious about my weight so am refusing to step on a scale or measure myself for at least a month when… Read More Cutting alcohol to help sleep properly.