I woke up to extremely loud wind this afternoon. I briefly woke up earlier and it was calm out there with bright sun. I thought that the weather had passed over us. I was wrong. The wind before that seemed to be nothing in comparison to what woke me up later. It seems like the worse of it has gone over now but the gusts of wind still sound quite strong. I haven’t left my bed yet to check the state of outside but by what I heard it is probably a mess outside. I had some really odd dreams when I finally fell asleep after not settling the entire night. I couldn’t shut up my brain. It was just full of endless inner thoughts. I was on edge the entire night, not just due to the impending storm but my head was full of crap. I do feel stuff coming. That has happened my entire life but my thoughts were so loud with it last night. I am also constantly reminded that I am 35 this year when people are talking about the storm of 87 comparing with this one. I would be fine with my age if I felt that I had actually achieved something. I have absolutely nothing to show for all the years I have existed. I am also just really tired emotionally because my sleep is so bad at the moment.