I didn’t get up anyway due to my awful sleep pattern but my monthly has properly come on. I want to go the gym tomorrow but I don’t know which way it is going to go yet. I got pains so it probably will stop me going tomorrow. I didn’t have the best day. I spent all day in bed because I am just so tired and fed up. I want my friend to speak to me (well ex friend by their choice). I did the wrong thing but the silent treatment has punished me long enough. I think it is immature and it hurts me which they must enjoy otherwise they wouldn’t be carrying this behaviour on. I gave our friendship everything but they discarded me so easily. I didn’t have to do that. I feel like it was a complete waste of my time now. I know that the friendship will never be the same but if they don’t speak to me then it will never be ok between us. I’m not the one causing the silence between us. It is entirely in their control because that is the side remaining stubborn. I am willing to talk to them. They won’t talk to me. Only they can change that. I don’t ask for forgiveness just to not be given the silent treatment anymore because it is affecting my mental health negatively. I don’t want to drink alcohol but the way they make me feel is a trigger.