I don’t feel well :(

I really need to detox from alcohol. It is no longer balanced again to the point it prevents me sleeping at night again. I drank too much in one week. I know that I have due to how ill I feel. I keep feeling sick and it isn’t helping weight loss. I struggle so much and addiction helps me get through life in general. I just want to cry because this on / off cycle is like a rollercoaster that I don’t want to keep jumping on just to cope. I feel frustrated that I have no will power to quit for good. It is no longer fun when it gets to this point, just unpleasant.