I had to let the cats in at a stupid hour. Then the owls decided to hoot loudly nearby my window for half an hour at quarter to 4 this morning. I had too much in my head to sleep anyway. I am thinking about phone appointment which is making me anxious. I feel like I need to poop but can’t go which is uncomfortable. I get a bit like this near my monthly and it will ease when it feels like it. It is harder to sleep while being uncomfortable. I am tired but need to do so much in the next few months. I miss my friend still but too exhausted to feel emotions right now. I just want my brain to stay numbed so I don’t feel stressed. Anxiety has currently made me feel sick but the alcohol I consumed probably has added to that feeling. I didn’t drink a lot but my stomach was already a bit upset.