Day: February 4, 2022

There must be a treatment to get my brain to work normally! It doesn’t lose weight like all the advice or shared experiences from others. I had enough housework to do when I dropped the cat food. I had to clean that up straight away. Most of it went back in the bowl that fell off the other one as I had them balanced on each other with something else in my hand. I can’t multitask when it comes to balance. I either fall over something or drop whatever I have in my hands. The litter tray next to where I picked up the mess needed removing so I cleaned that too. I am not going out today despite how nice the weather is now that the rain has cleared. I have too much to catch up on which is driving me crazy. The cats are now hungry again because most of their previous meal went on the floor. They had a bit but I will need to give them a bit more soon. It all feels too much but I can’t not do it. I can’t exist with weight clinging onto me like this… the belly fat is sickening. I have never been this fat since my early 20s. That was medication and alcohol but even laying off alcohol I can’t get it to quit clinging now. I am trying to not be stressed because that causes weight gain too. Why does everything add weight? How can I avoid all this stuff? It is just impossible.

I am only on day 4 of the 10k steps a day challenge. I feel like I am getting to the point of exhaustion already. I can’t keep up with the housework so my surroundings are getting progressively worse. I don’t want to fail the challenge but I am needing a rest and to spend time cleaning up the mess that has built up since I have been focusing on completing the 10k steps per day. I just can’t keep up and that really frustrates me. I seem to get tired more easily than most people. That can be annoying because I am a competitive person in nature but I can’t keep up let alone win. I have to neglect areas of my life to even complete tasks.