I told myself many times in the last couple of weeks that no one else’s behaviour would affect me. The problem is that I am really affected too much. I am starting to beat myself up regarding messing up and ruining a friendship to the point where it is now permanently finished. If it wasn’t… Read More I am really being affected now.

I have two sides of myself pulling me in opposite directions. One half of me wanted to move on. The other half of me can’t and that side is winning right now. I couldn’t sleep for the rest of the night because I am so frustrated with not having a person that I truly loved… Read More I thought I could but I can’t.

I was going to post this in the morning but since I have woken up at a stupid hour after not being asleep long I shall do it now. I have mentioned that I think like a child. That also means that I simply do not have the ability to be an intentional narcissist. I… Read More I don’t have the ability to be a narcissist.