I can’t settle again.

I know that it seems ridiculous that I am so on edge and can’t sleep due to what happened. I have apologised. I can’t beg any more than I already have done. I have a mind like a child. I am basically extremely simple. How is it fair to hate me for making an honest intentioned mistake? I won’t let it go. It will cause me trauma. It already is causing deep rooted trauma by how I am being affected. I can’t not feel this way. If I had a choice then I would rather not. I am trying to keep myself busy. I have something on today. I slept briefly until my cat woke me up scratching something. I couldn’t get back to sleep so had something to eat and a glass of water. I let the cats in. I need to get back to sleep for a while.