Double numbers and everything seems weird at the moment.

I have seen 2222 for the last week or more when I have randomly looked at my mobiles screen. I know what this means. This always happens when I lose someone for good. That is why I don’t want to see the repeated numbers. They never mean anything good. I don’t care if the other person isn’t trying to hurt me … it is hurting (the decision to cut contract). I mentally feel so disconnected right now. Nothing feels real. It is like being in a haze. The tiredness from lack of sleep probably isn’t helping that. I hate how things are at the moment. I constantly hate myself for the mistakes that I have made in regard to the decision that lost me my friend.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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