I am bothered and hurt but also made myself move on.

I may not show how I’m feeling but that doesn’t mean that losing a friendship that was important to me isn’t still hurting me underneath. I am bothered about what happened. That doesn’t mean I am completely dwelling on it a fortnight later. I have learned to move on quickly. That is to ensure that I will never hold onto things mentally for years which destroy me. I did that for many years and it not only makes me unhappy but also is like being under a heavy weight. I will welcome others back into my life if they decide that they want to speak to me again. I just refuse for anything or anyone (their actions etc) to inflict emotional pain on a long term basis. I will not carry anger or hurt because it only impacts on my own mental wellbeing and also stops me being triggered by anything or anyone.