I was so exhausted by 9pm that I felt like I dragged myself around to get ready for bed and wash up dinner pots. I practically fell into bed by half 9 as I could feel my legs getting heavier. I don’t think it will take long for me to fall asleep tonight. I think… Read More In bed by half 9… fell into bed.

I need to mention certain things about the petition to end disposal of parental consent when it comes to forced court ordered adoptions. I apologise if you already signed it before it was approved on Monday. Until that point it would only count up to 21 signatures. After 3 days we only have 76 on… Read More I am up in daylight 3rd day running! / info also regarding petition.

I woke up to my cat having done a poop in the litter tray. I had to open the window due to the smell. That is something I will need to do when I actually get out of bed today. I have gained weight after last week’s binge on alcohol (there is always a delay… Read More Awake… but not into life today.

The randomness of my new attitude and how sudden it has come on is crazy. This is also going to sound really arrogant and self centred but I have finally learnt to love myself and not put up with any outside bullshit. I will not be giving my love and attention to anyone else again… Read More New rules that are going to sound a little bit selfish.

I haven’t had alcohol in 2 days so far. I have got a lot more done than normal since actually making an effort to be awake during the day. Then I stay up too late after napping briefly at someone else’s house. I am still tired enough to fall asleep quite quickly but its still… Read More I still messed up my new pattern.

While I was on the machine at the gym. I decided to look at the privately rented properties currently on the market. Erm, there is no way I can afford that… unless I get a sum of money from writing a book or social media stuff. People working can barely afford nearly £900, nearly £800… Read More I have just looked at privately rented properties… well, any hope has gone now.

I decided that I was really going to kick myself into some kind of new lifestyle while quitting alcohol. I haven’t quite balanced it out yet. I had my breakfast at about half 1 this morning. That was only due to being that tired I actually was in bed by 10pm. I know that is… Read More First day of new lifestyle… it is ok.

I went for a long walk to forget about everything. I am now ready for a long new week. It is definitely going to be a long week. I have decided that I am no longer going to drink alcohol. Resisting the urge to buy it is always difficult over the first few weeks. I… Read More I have a long week ahead of me. Repeated numbers are becoming constant.

I am aware that this sounds pathetic but that is who I am after all the trauma in my life. I am not coping without my favourite person. I have learned my lesson. I will NEVER do anything like I did ever again if I am given a second chance to be in their life.… Read More I need my favourite person back.

I know that I shouldn’t be reading tarot before I try to sleep because I will never settle. I now can’t settle due to what they told me. The hope is gone completely at this point. I am fed up of being in friendships whIch always seem to have conditions attached to them. I love… Read More The tarot tells me everything.