I woke up later than I had planned today. It was like someone had knocked me out because I was that deeply asleep. The cats were curled up next to me looking extremely comfortable so even they hadn’t woken me up for food. We all enjoyed our long chilled out sleep though. I just fed them now while I got up to take my medication. I put the heating on because it was cold in here. That is probably why the cats came to snuggle with me due to wanting to find warmth. They love me in their own way but cats are naturally aloof and love on their own terms.
I need to deep condition my hair after last nights bleaching session. I left oil in it and plaited it for the night so the texture is a little unpleasant at the moment. I have to shampoo the oil excess out before deep conditioning. It is important to keep the moisture in hair as much as possible during lightening to reduce the amount of damage, there will always be some damage but keeping hair strands from drying out reduces potential major damage. I am waking up. I took my medication and put clothes on the radiator ready to wear. I am not wanting to get up but I have stuff to do. I need to do my washing today due to the superstition that surrounds doing it on new years day. I don’t want to tempt fate at all right now in any way. The repeated numbers have stopped occurring since I got stressed and told them to stop. I refused to participate in the whole seeing signs stuff. I get too frightened of it all now. Life is at a stage where I am not interested in knowing things intuitively. It is hard to turn it all off but I can refuse to receive parts of it. I want to be ignorant to the world around me like many others take for granted. I am too tired to feel whatever is floating around in forms of energy. I need a break from all that. It has never helped me, if anything its always got me into trouble. I feel things that others don’t want me to know which makes it seem like I am interfering or even worse finding out info by other means rather than intuition. It is exhausting constantly being connected intuitively to everything and everyone. I want to be able to disconnect but that is so hard to do. I need to feel free for a while.