I am at the gym. I don’t plan to eat for days (weight gain during christmas means I have to reverse it). I don’t feel like eating though. I constantly feel sick due to emotionally being upset. That is what happens with mental illness. You literally feel emotions physically. I don’t want to be any… Read More Off the rails approaching in 3, 2, 1…

I am part of a few mental health communities online. I keep getting people saying their DM’s are always open if I need to talk. I know that they mean well but that’s not going to help. There is no point in talking when it doesn’t change anything. People mean well but they cannot help… Read More I don’t want to talk ok. It won’t help.

I found myself truly smiling for the first time in a long time the other week. That was since I got to know my new friend who now no longer wants to speak to me ever again. I can no longer truly smile now. I can’t even fake a smile. I just feel depressed and… Read More All the progress that I made is reversing.