I tried more of the weight machines tonight while the gym wasn’t too busy. That way I cannot make an ass out of myself while I am still learning the whole weight training aspect. I got here at 5 to 10 and literally had to do ’supermarket sweep’ at the supermarket next door to get… Read More I slept in but got to the gym.

I am aware of the fact that others have their own stuff going on but I am totally fed up. I know that my BPD side doesn’t like feeling ignored even if logically I know this isn’t the case. I just feel angry. I was crying, that is just hormones not directly linked. I get… Read More I’m fed up and I am totally done!

I managed to fall asleep for about an hour. I then woke up again. I needed the toilet but a nightmare woke me up. I don’t know whether I was awake or asleep but saw something scary in front of me. I was shaking but I think it was my stomach waking me up to… Read More I fell asleep but woke up again.