Happy new year before I forget. Anyway, now that is over I shall say what is in my head. How can a person completely flip reverse on me and still not be talking to me after a week if they ever remotely liked me as a friend? I did the wrong thing but not maliciously.… Read More I don’t get it. I have been punished and suffered enough.
I know that I preach the lets all be free spirits thing but ironically that is something I am not able to be in my offline life. I change my hair and say that I am going to dye it neon pink once it is lifted enough. I get told that I am too old… Read More I can’t do what I want in my life.
I woke up later than I had planned today. It was like someone had knocked me out because I was that deeply asleep. The cats were curled up next to me looking extremely comfortable so even they hadn’t woken me up for food. We all enjoyed our long chilled out sleep though. I just fed… Read More I had an extra long sleep.
I have one of my current favourite songs on repeat while laying in a bath planning on becoming a new me (best thing to do when you’re hurting over another). I am quitting the alcohol at new year. I am planning to bleach my hair to put on neon pink temporary colour. It isn’t going… Read More New me in progress.
Well, if the other person truly felt the same they would have popped back up in my DM’s by now. Again, like always, I mean nothing to those that mean something to me. I don’t know why I bother trying for others. They just don’t even appreciate it. Some efeb berate me and tell me… Read More Guess it is over then?
I always get extremely anxious about starting to see signs like repeated numbers. That is simply because last time I saw them constantly for a while my life went completely pear shaped. I saw two magpies yesterday on my walk but not in the usual way. They are normally always close to each other but… Read More Repeated numbers again. These things make me so anxious.
I haven’t completely got over my friend telling me that they never want to hear from me again. I am just not showing it. There is nothing that will change her decision so there’s no point in me hurting over it constantly. There is enough pain both of our lives for different reasons. I tried… Read More I am still hurt but not showing it.
I am not over certain things but I have to not go offline completely. This blog stuff is basically my work and if I am going to try to make money writing I need to keep my name in public. It doesn’t matter what is going on in my personal life. I can’t make money… Read More Normal service resumed, strong minded again!
I don’t feel great at the moment. I have a bad stomach due to being a little blocked up. I won’t go into that but it is uncomfortable and I am hoping it clears soon. I would also never put a foot wrong again if my friend who fell out with me gave me a… Read More I have been so much better but it never is ’better’ for long.
I am at the gym. I don’t plan to eat for days (weight gain during christmas means I have to reverse it). I don’t feel like eating though. I constantly feel sick due to emotionally being upset. That is what happens with mental illness. You literally feel emotions physically. I don’t want to be any… Read More Off the rails approaching in 3, 2, 1…