I feel extremely flat today. I didn’t do a lot. I barely slept last night. I have regretted opening myself up to making friends. I am feeling sad and breaking up about my own unresolved issues. That is why I avoid relationships. If someone is mentally breaking that I am emotionally invested in then I end up feeling the same. That is part of my disability but its really annoying because I feel helpless. I hate not being able to fix things for others. Then it starts affecting me and how I function. I feel like I am not really present, that I am sat here in an empty shell.