I feel extremely flat today. I didn’t do a lot. I barely slept last night. I have regretted opening myself up to making friends. I am feeling sad and breaking up about my own unresolved issues. That is why I avoid relationships. If someone is mentally breaking that I am emotionally invested in then I… Read More I have had one of those days.
I have seen the program advertised regarding paddy and christine mcguiness and autism to do with their children and recently christine was also officially diagnosed. I am sure that they do these programs with the most genuine intentions to increase awareness. I just have done the same for years since the age of 17 for… Read More I don’t like how people make money out of programs to do with autism.
I wasn’t able to go to the gym yesterday. I made up for missing a session due to the weather conditions. I did 4000 steps pacing in my flat in the early hours of the morning because I couldn’t sleep. I slept well after I did finally sleep at 5 am. I went for a… Read More Today I made up for my recent laziness.
I was reluctantly awake every few hours today. I did have plans but after the snow arrived they were not happening due to driving conditions. People are still driving about but not the normal amount of cars are going passed our block of flats. I don’t want to eat. I’m just not hungry. I am… Read More Just… no today… any kind of way.
I didn’t get to sleep until at least half 4 this morning. I was watching casualty briefly while ironing a few things. There was a girl on there who was facing her baby being removed by the services. It brought everything back for me. I was scrolling through TikTok on the forced adoption hashtag. I… Read More Very tired and been an emotional night.
The wind is quite cold when it blows at you. I was born the end of the week of the hurricane in 1987 so these weather conditions don’t bother me. If a tree falls on my head it was meant to be or just one of those things. We don’t have snow where I am… Read More Well, its breezy outside…
I think that the video above is self explanatory. I was ill and from time to time depressed and the mess illustrated above is the result. I seriously can’t do it right now. I get tired just looking at it. I tried to do some of it and got stomach pains and also extremely hot.… Read More This is depression. (see video in link.
I go through most days thinking that I am over grieving in relation to my sons adoption. Then it hits me that it never truly goes away. It merely becomes more numbed so that most days you don’t feel it. I feel it so strongly today though. It may be the time of the year… Read More Grief is disabling.
I literally woke up feeling sick. That just makes things feel ten times worse. I swear that I have a migraine coming on. I have to get on with everything that I haven’t got done this week today. I can’t top up my gas or electric (the electric is near to running out) because boosts… Read More It never seems to end…
I managed to get a lot of sleep because my cold is still making me a little tired. I had to go out before the pharmacy closed as I had to pick up my prescription. The strap on my bag broke again when I had just gone out so I had to repair it on… Read More Non productive day today. / I am really not scared of certain things.