I had a lymphatic drainage massage today :)

I tried a lymphatic drainage massage today. I feel a lot better already. I did some housework when I got home but I’m just relaxing at the moment. I needed it after my binge which made me ill for days on Monday. She drained my system of all my backed up fluid around my liver and in parts of my legs / ankles. I was aching and feeling extremely rough before I got there today. I haven’t been the gym since Saturday after completely doing myself in.

I am now properly on my monthly so having a few days off because I don’t know which way its going to go yet. I never trust it after being on iron tablets for a few weeks and being late may make it play up. I had pains with it this month. I wasn’t getting pains before I went back on iron tablets. I breezed through last months without it affecting my daily activities for the first time in a long time. I even kept going to the gym throughout that week. I’m sure that not sleeping properly isn’t helping how I feel during waking hours. I got a few hours this morning but it wasn’t that much.

I still can’t believe I will be 34 in a few days. It seems weird. I feel like I was only 24 a short time ago, no way does that feel like a decade ago. However, I feel about 50 odd most of the time at the moment. The after effects of the gym can be brutal when you push yourself hard to see results. Swollen muscles, needing the toilet when your system is cleansing itself after exercise… there is more but those are the main ones. The results are worth it.

I can’t help laying awake worrying ok.

I am still concerned about having to move. It has kept me awake for months since I found out that my contract wasn’t going to be renewed due to the landlord selling. I still haven’t found anywhere suitable to move. The places in my price range are either snapped up quicker than I can get a viewing, let alone make a decision. The others have something wrong with them, e.g the last one had older type electric storage heaters which I know cost a fortune to run. That place was also too small for my furniture. Then other places don’t allow pets. I’m constantly worried to the point where I feel sick. The thought of shifting all my stuff makes me stressed in advance. I am just fearing the whole awful process months before I have to get out. The whole stress of benefits being updated after change of address and various changes meaning I get migrated to universal credit. That benefit migration terrifies me because I have heard how other disabled people got left with not enough income to prevent them being homeless.