Day: October 6, 2021

I cannot stand the weight that I have put on! I want it gone. I’ve worked hard enough to have gone down more now. I have literally cut back on everything now that medication which made me eat lots has worn off completely. I can feel the fat has come off my legs but my thighs and abs are still fatty. I can still see it in my face so its not enough. I refuse to be this big! If someone has hexed me please undo it! I’m sorry for being critical of overweight people. I have learned my lesson so karma can let me go back to a size 10 again. I’m too short to carry this extra weight! Its harder to do stuff at only 3 stone heavier than my ideal weight. I can’t do it any more. I hardly have any clothes that fit me.

The irony that I run a blog and always am going on about something … is that in my personal life no one seems to actually taken any notice of what I actually say. I’m very much doubtful that anyone actually reads what I send in messages. It also appears that no one hears during conversations either. Someone had a conversation with my Mother about my experiences as an autistic person. There are some details that I know that I told them in conversations I had with this person previously. It’s like I am invisible… or people just don’t take in what I say because see me in a passive way due to my disability. They may not even be aware that they are doing it. That is why we need to bridge the divide. I don’t know how we do that though. Yes, people may listen to the blog to a point, but I need that to be part of my personal life too rather than being ignored and people not even bothering to read things that I’ve sent them. If no one notices me in offline life then I will never get into a relationship, make friends etc. I understand that life is busy for everyone but some of us always seen to be invisible.