Day: September 20, 2021

I couldn’t wake up until about 5pm today. The place is still a mess but gone out for a walk to get away for a bit. I took my medication last night because I needed sleep. I got a load. I have to be awake for 10 am on Wednesday for my first open university event. I need to be there as it brushes up on all level 1 written skills etc. I lack those skills required in academic focused writing due to the fact that I got kicked out of school during the time everyone was learning those basics. It doesn’t help that I have learning difficulties thrown in there with it that have never really been addressed. They aren’t obvious in me so they put it down to purely autism. They tried to say that I was down syndrome when i was born, not by any conclusive tests, I had a fat face and was built a certain way! Basically, calling me medically fat… you can see why they want to keep my records away from view now?

I had to park my car on the grass verge outside our car park last night. Our flats car park was full to the point where people had parked against the wall. Please don’t park in there if your not a resident. I managed to get a space when I got up today. There was only one space available. This happens ever so often so its obvious that you’re not all residents or visiting the flats. We have a bus stop which goes to Leicester and Coventry. We had barely any of that problem during lockdown. That means people are parking and riding to where the bus goes etc. Please stop it because we can’t park on the road and when it rains we can’t park on the grass verge that easily.

I didn’t get home until gone midnight but still awake. I think my allergies are either kicking off or the cats have brought fleas in with them. I’m uncomfortable and overeaten again so the gym yesterday was a waste of time. I can’t stop eating even not taking the new medication a lot due to trying to come off of them. I’m extremely stressed because I think that the chemicals that are put in our foods nowadays is something restaurant chefs used to use to make their food more appealing to customers. It’s something like mono saturate chemical name. I won’t have a chance at weight loss if that reacts with my medication. If you look at any labels now, it says things a long them lines. You’d think that pre-made sandwiches/wraps are harmless until you look at the label and see what is added. I think this stuff is also added to bread now. Then there is the soft drinks that we consume. The same drinks that I consume today, never used to make me gain weight whatsoever. Over the last decade, I’ve noticed excess bloating after drinking soft drinks. The manufacturers need to take out whatever they’ve added. It was okay not to have those added things in a decade ago so reversing it can’t be that difficult. We can’t keep eating these chemicals, they’re literally in every single thing we eat now. If it’s fruit and vegetables they’ve normally sprayed something on them. Organic is expensive and out of my price range nowadays. I think that organic is actually too expensive for most people on low incomes or benefits. The only people who can afford to eat healthily are those with a lot of disposable income. People have gone on for ages about forcing manufacturers not to put the excess chemicals which we don’t need in our foods… it never actually happens. I’d like to see action there, some of those chemicals make my skin react due to allergies.

The moon is extremely bright tonight, the light is showing up the cloud formations. I saw that the formation looked like a skull earlier, so I took a photo of it … in case people start saying it’s my imagination. Here’s the photo below: