Girl Power: Inspired by the Spice Girls programme on Channel 4 tonight.

I’m one of those young girls that grew up when the Spice Girls were popular. I wasn’t a huge fan of their merchandise era but I was a fan of the group when they came out. And, yes, I literally did cry when Geri Halliwell left the band (in my defence, I was only 9 or 10 years old!) Didn’t Simon Fuller’s career plummet after he finished managing the group? I’m aware that he is still in music management but I’m sure he hasn’t been as well known since managing the group. I don’t think he lives in the United Kingdom nowadays. I am loosely relating this television programme to tonight’s blog entry.

As far as “Girl Power” goes, it wasn’t created by the Spice Girls, it was reinvented by them and Riot Grrrl, a contemporary American post-punk scene, having first appeared in the original ’70s punk movement. I’m definitely not a feminist, however, I do have my gripes in regard to certain things still being bias in the favour of men.

It definitely feels like 30 years ago in the world of being a women in the autism community. Yes, there may be more of us being diagnosed nowadays but it doesn’t mean that it’s more equal. I have seen it in action. I have done exactly the same thing as a male autistic, for example: running this blog. The male autistic which is running a blog gets twice, three times as many fans, followers etc than me, a female autistic blogger. Granted, I do not do as many appearances in a public capacity as the male autistics who run blogs. That is my personal choice.

I don’t put myself out there because I did when I was younger. I know what it is like. Those that have made their careers on a large successful scale literally have been on the go for years, being everywhere, doing ever single little thing that they were either offered or could get accepted to do. That is one hell of a lonely life. You may have fans and seemingly everyone around you, but you are still personally on your own at the end of the day when you go home to your personal life. I don’t have the energy to be doing all of that. I know that I won’t be able to keep it up. You see people on television for a few hours. You do not see the time they have to get up to travel to where they are booked to be. You don’t see the endless hours of camera footage from multiple takes for anything visual based. That requires a lot of patience and if you’re not mentally strong enough, the toll it takes on a person can be rather destructive. The rewards of those things being successful are great, but they aren’t guaranteed.

Some celebrities have spent years doing these work projects and have never had one be successful until they were passed middle age. Do you want to go through that soul destroying process? More importantly, can you personally deal with all the aspects of climbing your way to the top? I can sing (not diva style but singer/songwriter style) and act a bit, I also used to dance as a very young child. I can write to a certain standard. That doesn’t mean that I will strike it lucky because there is so much competition with so many people being more skilled and talented.

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Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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