Month: August 2021

  • I changed my mind. I don’t want to do it.

    I thought about it. I’m not sure I want to go through with having another child. I’m not doing it for the right reason. I want to cancel out what happened with my son by doing it all over again so I didn’t fail. That is how I felt that I could move on. If […]

  • I hate unsupportiveness by others.

    I already had my plans criticised by others already. I know the timing isn’t great but there is never a right time after what happened with my first child. There is going to be a risk that I have to take regardless of when I have another child. Then I got told that it was […]

  • I wish that I functioned normally…

    I have been picking my skin because I am frustrated that I slept during the day and now can’t sleep at night again… jeez this pattern is annoying! I try to stay awake during the day but then the wave of tiredness hits and I fall asleep. The challenge of being anxious/excited at the same […]