Month: August 2021

  • Another wasted day. More paperwork requested.

    I couldn’t wake up today, so I got nothing done. I got an email from the council requesting more full documents because the screenshots weren’t enough. I’ve managed to download the pdfs to my email so that I can forward them onto the documents section of my online application. I didn’t sleep last night so…

  • Well, today just went back to the usual pattern.

    The effect I went to in order to flip my sleep pattern didn’t work. I thought screw it and went back to sleep. I know that I’m never going to lose anymore weight if I stay in bed. I just don’t particularly care. I’d love to be a few stone lighter again but I don’t…

  • Routine establishing.

    I had one day out of my normal routine. I skipped my bath in the evening yesterday. I had to do this so that I fell asleep quite quickly while I was at the right stage to sleep. I had to take my chance when I felt natural evening sleepiness setting in which would have…

  • I managed to get up this morning! (Yes, I’m surprised too).

    I actually managed to sleep last night. I know I’m surprised. I woke up about 3 times but got to sleep again. I woke up this morning at a decent hour. I was in the ‘screw it all’ mood due to my flat being a mess. I knew that I had to clean it. Then…

  • Depression is bad again. I haven’t been out the door in two days.

    It is quite rare that I don’t go out for a few days. I haven’t even been for a walk. I’m depressed and all I want to do is sleep. I cannot function against the ableism that exists in the outside world. It has always been there but I wasn’t worn down enough feel it…