I used to be sensitive… now I’m not!

Life screwed me over several times in horrendous ways. I used to let it upset me but now I’m no longer bothered. We live in an awful world which destroys those of us that are sensitive. I loved others who didn’t give a crap about me. They certainly would never love me. If I could go back to tell younger me who was quite frankly besotted with some questionable individuals… I would shake her and then I’d have avoided all the trouble that they bought to my life. I would have never of had any children if I was the person I am today. I’m not mean. I just would have avoided all the stuff I went through. I spend most of my evenings under the influence of alcohol. I’m free to do as I wish with no child rearing responsibilities. I may as well live my life like I don’t have any cares. I don’t need to care if I don’t have children. I’m watching new episodes of family guy. I couldn’t do that if I had children because it’s an adult cartoon. I just don’t care anymore. I was always stressed when I cared. I was always stressed when I wanted those that didn’t want me. If you don’t care then nothing keeps you awake at night.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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