Yes, I failed again. I even got up by one this afternoon, put out all my clothes and prepared myself to get up. That didn’t happen because I got comfortable again and then fell asleep. I’m fed up of being like this but just trying to fight it is a battle. The fact that my… Read More I fell asleep and then my dreams tricked me that I was awake!

I still always get the feeling that I technically threw my son away when he was born. There were more times I didn’t want him than wanting him shortly after he was born. That is so cruel. I feel so bad for resenting him at times. Part of me was even relieved when he first… Read More The guilt is crushing me this morning!