Today was a nightmare.

I was in bed most of the day with a severe migraine. I was literally sick this morning which happens when stress builds up. I’m then fine after I’ve had a deep sleep post throwing up. I think it’s a natural internal reset mechanism. I didn’t need to even take a painkiller to help shift it. I fell asleep with a severe pain in the side of my head behind my eye after I threw up. I woke up 6 hours later with no pain. I had a rude awakening by my cat deciding to pee on my bed right next to my back. I was not happy and he got put outside for an hour. He does it when I’m not waking up as quickly as he would like when he wants something. The vet keeps telling me it’s behavioural. He seems ok in himself but he’s a complete little shit sometimes. I then cleaned out all the litter trays so he has no excuses to complain by peeing elsewhere about them. I need to sleep if I have a migraine and I know it’s hard for him to understand that I’m not ignoring him on purpose. I put them first constantly and he literally has most things he wants even if it’s not instantly. He didn’t try to pee for a few days after I’ve put him outside as punishment each time. The thing is I haven’t stuck to doing it every single time he decided to behave like that. He was already in trouble after bringing a mouse in last night. He was using it like a toy which is annoying when he’s got lots of toys to play with…. So I put it back out telling him not to bring it in again. He decided to be defiant and do exactly the opposite. I found the same dead mouse on the floor this morning. I wasn’t pleased at that point but as I had a migraine and wanted to get back to bed after feeding them I didn’t tell him off too strongly. He knows that peeing in my bed is wrong. He always gets told off when he does that kind of thing. Granted, I should have put him out the other day when he peed on my duvet and cover. I didn’t so maybe I didn’t reinforce the message enough. He then assumed that peeing next to me would get him what he wants again.

I’m having a bad time at the moment.

The heat isn’t helping any of us. I have a headache from just being out there for a few hours in the evening and yesterday I only walked from my car to the supermarket and back into my home. I had to stop Dave (wandering cat) being ran out earlier. Someone driving a white Land Rover came into our car park. Dave decided to sniff around their tyres and wasn’t seen by the person driving. He went to sit in front of it as the person drove forward. If I hadn’t got him to come to me he would have gone under the wheels. I worry about him now he’s getting older. If he can’t hear properly while strolling around the car park it may not be a near miss the next time. There’s cars that are quite high which prevents the driver seeing him wandering around their tyres. If I hadn’t happened to go out at that point for something from my car he wouldn’t have been so lucky. I can’t watch him all the time. I also definitely can’t even keep an eye on him after I move.

I also turned my already injured ankle again today. I’m going to have to get it looked at by an X-ray or something because the bone is hurting in my toe and half way up my calf above my ankle. It definitely isn’t my muscles hurting. The fact that it’s weak and keeps tipping if I’m not careful also isn’t a positive sign that it’s healing properly. It seems to heal but then goes the other way. I always put something around it to support my ankle when I do go for a walk. I’m also concerned about long term effects of the covid vaccine. I had my first jab in February and the second in April. I never had any side effects on the second dose but the first made me feel terrible. I didn’t know if I was hot or cold. I had a headache, arm ache and my monthly was delayed by a week. I get a bit scared when people have had random health problems after approximately 3 months. I keep getting a pain under my rib which seems to be getting sharper every time I feel it. It’s only for a few seconds on a nearly daily basis. That’s only happened since I had my last vaccination. I don’t want to worry about things unnecessarily but it’s a bit unnerving hearing the same kind of experiences coming from vaccinated people. I got the AstraZeneca vaccine before most people my age because of being on the clinically vulnerable list. There hadn’t been enough people vaccinated for the stories of experiences post vaccine to come out at that time. I was told that I was the only one who had reported the vaccination affecting my monthly at my second appointment. Weeks later I find out lots of women experienced the same things. Then there’s the weight that I just can’t lose since having the vaccines. Yes, I assumed it was my alcohol consumption but I cut that and the weight will not come off. I’m concerned in case we do all die within two years because it destroys our bodies via our immune system reactions. There’s things that don’t add up. I’m not a conspiracy theorist. I don’t believe half the things I see that’s supposedly true on the internet. I cannot deny that I haven’t felt a bit off since receiving my vaccinations. I’ve always been tired but there’s other nagging stuff like what I mentioned above.