I’m too tired to even be awake today. I just don’t see the point anymore. Living is just an endless stream of disappointment. I am so fed up with all the negative crap. I don’t want to have to move all my stuff to somewhere else next year. It’s just effort that I have no energy to do. I have no choice but even the thought is making me feel exhausted. There’s so much to do and stay on top of that even thinking what I have to do makes me tired. I’m not lazy. I don’t physically or mentally have the energy. I feel it badly when I do try to push myself. I am seriously fighting with my own mind at the moment. I know I need to do stuff but my mind is fighting to sleep constantly. I’m aways wanting to go back to sleep even when I’m up doing things.